I taught for one year, and it was not the most ideal situation. Not bad….just not great.
I left, had four children, and here I am, 15 YEARS LATER, two days before I go back to full-time teaching.
Well, two days before I go back to professional development. Lots and lots of professional development.
And as I sit here, oscillating wildly between blazing, stupid confidence and panic-inducing stress, I realize that I’m not alone.
Right now, there are so many men and women looking to start something new. We’re all feeling that swirling mix of emotions. RIGHT NOW.
And we’re not alone.
Isn’t that an amazing feeling? Those feelings of inadequacy, worry, and doubt are RIGHT NOW shared by someone in your own town. But just like yours, those feelings are probably sprinkled with some feelings of inexplicable (but valid) curiosity, excitement, and empowerment.
My mother calls the return to work (or the start of anything new) “Jumping the Wake.” My mom is awesome. “Jumping the wake” is a perfect illustration for a new chapter in life. Getting past that first hurdle–STARTING–is the hardest part. It WILL get easier. And we WILL feel more confident. We just need to get past the first step. We need to jump the wake.
And that’s where this blog comes in. I want to “live” journal what it’s actually like to step back in the game after fifteen years out. I want to see if it really DOES get easier. And I want to share that with you. As I’m writing this, I’m still two days away from my first day. This is my intro:
A little excited, but mostly terrified.